Saturday, May 26, 2012

I Will SIng To The Lord As Long As I Live!


Pentecost 2012 - Acts 2: 1-21/Psalm 104:25-35,37/Romans 8:22-27/John 15:26-27;16:4b-15
The Reverend Kirk Alan Kubicek, St. Peter's at Ellicott Mills, Maryland
We Do Not Know How To Pray As We Ought
Lord of the universe: I am a simple man, an ignorant man. Oh, how I wish I had the words to fashion beautiful prayers to praise thee! But alas, I cannot find the words. So, listen to me, O God, as I recite the alphabet. You know what I think and how I feel. Take these letters of the alphabet and you form the words to express the yearning, the love for thee, that is in my heart.
-Unknown author
Pentecost is like that. Life is like that. These Days Between have been like that - there are no words. Notice what the disciples do on the days between - they are all gathered together in one place when the house begins to shake, rattle and roll. I have experienced this before - in Dekoven House, Racine, Wisconsin - a place that looks like it is home for the Adams Family, right on the banks of Lake Michigan. It was winter. I was on silent retreat led by the Scottish Bishop, Richard Holloway - who after each "talk" with us would fall to his knees and invoke the Holy Spirit. After one of his talks I went to my room. The windows began to rattle, the wind began to howl, the entire building was shaking! That is when it struck me - The Holy Spirit is trying to get to us, get inside Dekoven House and shake us up when all we have to do is open the windows and let her in! All we have to do is go outside and let God's Spirit, God's breath, God's Holy Wind have at us: Ruach in Genesis 1 in the Hebrew; Pneuma in Acts in Greek; Prana for the Hindus; Spiritu Sancti for the Latin church - all these words mean spirit, breath and wind. All are meant to connect us directly to the source of all life: God, YHWH, Brahman, Allah, Father, Son and Holy Spirit - all names for The One God.

We keep coming back to John's version of Maundy Thursday - yet another section. He knows  how he ought to pray as he prays for us and announces he will send another version of God, since the Father becoming the Son seems not to have completely put us back on track. He calls this the Spirit of Truth - not a reference to the discovery of scientific and general historical truth, though truth of every kind must ultimately be One, of one source, the afore mentioned One God.

The Muslims say, "There is no God but God." The Sufis, an early stream of Islam, narrow that down considerably as they say, "There is nothing but God." Jesus is saying much the same thing over and over again in every conceivable metaphor about vines, shepherds, bread, you name it! Here he says the Spirit of Truth will set us straight about sin, righteousness and judgment.

Archbishop William Temple puts it this way, sounding much like a Sufi mystic himself: "Everything which is other than God would have it is sin." Or, as we say in baptism, sin is anything and everything that separates us from the Love of God. Which soon leads anyone who is open to the Spirit of Truth to realize that the opposite of Love, the Love of God, the opposite of "the way God would have it," is nothing less than self-centeredness. Says Paul elsewhere in Romans, "All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God." (Romans 3:23) This is our definition of sin - we have fallen short of the glory of God. We who are imago Dei, made in the image of God, have forsaken our very created Being and instead are concerned exclusively with our selves - my self - instead of centering our selves, individually and collectively, on God in Christ.

You see it is not good enough to be as good as those around us. Nothing is enough than that we should be as good as God. Jesus says it himself, "You shall be perfect as your Father in heaven is perfect." (Matthew 5:48) After all, from the very beginning, Genesis chapter 1, it is made evident that we are made in the image of God, male and female.

So when it comes to sin we attempt to correct the symptoms, not cure the dis-ease within us. We try to reform our habits of lying, cheating, sloth, envy, gluttony, on and on it goes. But we ignore the dis-ease of our self-centeredness - we simply are not God centered. Really, if we were God centered would be find ourselves where we are right now?

The Holy Spirit, if we allow it into our lives, if, as we pray, we allow the "inspiration of the Holy Spirit" - literally the breathing in, the inspiring, of God's Holy Breath, Spirit and Wind - we will find ourselves blown to new places and new ways of Being that we cannot possibly imagine. Says Paul, we do not hope for that which we can see! But if we hope for what we do not see, and wait for it with patience - ahhh, there's the rub.

Waiting and patience, not really our strong suits as human beings in a consumer driven capitalist society that dictates what we think we want and need. But it is all things we can see! Not things hoped for that we cannot possibly see or imagine!

Which reveals the source of our Judgment which the Spirit of Truth is sent to us to reveal: we convict ourselves. God is not the dispenser of penalties. No need for that! Our judgment is a direct consequence of our response to the sending of the Spirit of Truth - our judgment is the verdict upon us which consists of our reaction to the "light" - the Light of Christ, the Morning Star that knows no setting, still lit in our midst since the night before Easter! Fifty days it has burned at every service we have had since Easter.

We convict ourselves. The Jewish people were among the first, if not the first, in recorded history to look at a bad situation like slavery, exile, and occupation, and say, "It must be our fault. We are no longer God centered. We must renew the covenant, repent, and return to the Lord." The Quran says much the same thing - what we do is what convicts us, not God, not Allah, not the Holy Spirit. We judge ourselves. And this grieves God - unto death on the cross.

God wants to be merciful. God wants us to be imago Dei. So it is he comes to us as Jesus, he comes to us as Spirit, Ruach, Prana, Spiritu Sancti. Our task is to open ourselves to the gift of the Spirit of Truth - which truth is Jesus, who is the Way, the Way to God, away from self-centeredness. Until we open ourselves to this gift of the Spirit, we cannot be One with God, and therefore cannot be One with one another. And all this is through Jesus to whom be glory forever and ever!

So we are to hope for that which we cannot see and wait with patience. As we breathe deeply we gain patience. Richard Rohr, by the way, observes that the very name YHWH is believed to mimic the sound of breathing - therefore the first word we "say" and the last word we "say" is God's name! And there is no one way of breathing - no Christian, Jewish or Muslim way to breathe. No rich, poor or middle class way to breath. We all breathe the same breath, which is recycled over and over throughout history - so it was the same for the caveman as it is for the astronaut! And it all comes from one source, which science has confirmed!

It is Kurt Vonnegut who says we have been given one good idea - to be merciful, as Jesus says in the Sermon on the Mount. Vonnegut hopes, like Paul, that we will be given another good idea by and by - and what it is we do not know. But Vonnegut suspects that music, that ineffable, mystical expression of human hopefulness, is the next good idea being born. The Psalmist agrees in verse 34 of Psalm 104, "I will sing to the Lord as long as I live." This is what we are to do as we hope for that which we cannot see and wait with patience! It's either that, or simply sit around and recite the alphabet!.

 So let Jesus, the Father and His Spirit open our hearts, minds and souls to the Spirit of Truth as we sing:
Can’t nobody do me like Jesus
Can’t nobody do me like my Lord
Can’t nobody do me like Jesus
He’s my friend

He takes my hand when
I’m goin’ down

He picks me up and
turns me around

He turns me around and
tells me to go home.    -Andrae Crouch (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PkERnneAdsU)

Saturday, May 19, 2012

The Days Between


20 May 2012 Easter 7B - John 17:6-19
The Reverend Kirk Alan Kubicek, Saint Peter's at Ellicott Mills, Maryland
The Days Between
There were days
and there were days
and there were days between
polished like a golden bowl
the finest ever seen
Hearts of Summer held in trust
still tender, young and green
left on shelves collecting dust
not knowing what they mean
valentines of flesh and blood
as soft as velveteen
hoping love would not forsake
the days that lie between lie between
-Robert Hunter/Jerry Garcia
The Seventh Sunday of Easter lies uncertainly between the Feast of the Ascension and the Day of Pentecost. A time between - between the disciples feeling abandoned, left behind, left on their own, and that day when the disciples were renewed, changed and forever empowered to speak the good news in ways that all could understand.

But for ten days it had to feel strange - anxious - awkward - unknowing - lost. The One  whom they had loved and lost had been restored to them forever in every place and in every time. In those days between they must have spent much time sitting in silence, praying, wondering, imagining, trying to believe that the story, the adventure of their lives, was not over but was somehow, mysteriously beginning again. Always we begin again. All ways we begin again.

Like us, this Seventh Sunday of Easter,  I want to believe they tried with every ounce of concentration in their bodies, minds and souls to recall all that he had prayed that last night with them - what we rather casually refer to as the seventeenth chapter of John - Jesus' high priestly prayer - The Gospel of the Lord, Praise to you Lord Christ.

He is praying for his disciples -  his body - his baptized - he is praying for us. I cannot ever get over the very fact of it.  Here it is Maundy Thursday, the night before Good Friday. He knows. He knows he has to die, you know he had to die. When they, when we, should have been praying for him, taking care of him, he was praying for us.

He prays that we might be as close to him as he is to the Father. He calls this eternal life. “And this is eternal life, that they may know you , the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom you have sent.” (John 17:3)

Eternal life. It is not something out in the future. It is not what we call the "here-after." He wants us to have eternal life here-and-now. It is a life lived with God and Jesus, here and now.

Jesus goes on to pray for our protection in this time between which is in fact eternal life. He prays for our Joy. And he prays that we be sanctified.

To be sanctified means to become more like the image of God in which we were created. It means to attain to the life God intends for all people. It means to live out our Baptismal promises: that all that we say and do will proclaim the good news of God in Christ; that we will seek and serve Christ in all persons; that we will be those people who strive for justice and peace for all people, respecting the dignity of every human being. That is, we will honestly do unto others as we would have them do unto ourselves.

Finally, Jesus prays that we be in this world but not of this world. By “world” he does not mean creation. We are a part of creation and we belong here in God’s creation. By “world” he means the reality of chaos created by humans who refuse to live a life of sanctification in God’s ways. Those who refuse God and choose a way of death over a way of life. The Gospel’s use of the word “world” forces us to see that there is creation, which is God’s reality for us, and world, which is our self-construction of destruction. Creation is from light and from love; world is about power and destruction and death.

This is why Jesus prays for us: the world is eternally seductive. Only God is eternally true.
These are days, these are days, these are days between - where we find ourselves hoping love would not forsake, the days that lie between, lie between.

So God sends us Lola. Little Lola Carole Ann Hicks is sent to us to become one of us - we who are One with Him - we who are his Body - we who are his beloved. On page 298 of the Book of Common Prayer it states that those who are united with him by Water and the Holy Spirit have eternal life here and now - this bond established by God in Holy Baptism, we are told, is indissoluble. As he comes up out of the water of the River Jordan he hears a voice - a voice from the heavens declares, "You are my Beloved - with whom I am well pleased!" That is who we are. Now and forever. Even during these days between. That is what the disciples realized. This is what we must never forget - You are God's Beloved - God is well pleased with you."



You are my Beloved
I am well pleased with you


I am God’s Beloved
God is well pleased with me

I’m gonna tell you how it’s gonna be
God’s gonna give God’s love to me
I’m gonna love God night and day
You know our love not fade away

Our Love’s bigger than a Cadillac
God ain’t never gonna take it back
God’s love’s bigger than an SUV
No one can take it away from me
You know our Love not fade away

If you don’t believe I’ve been redeemed
Then come on down to Jordan’s stream
Up in the Sky what do you see
The Holy Spirit comin’ down on me
The Holy Spirit comin’ down on me

I'm gonna tell you how it's gonna be
God’s gonna give God’s love to me
A love to last more than one day
A love that's love - not fade away
Love that's love - not fade away

Amen




Saturday, May 12, 2012

Abide With Christ


13 May 2010/Easter 6B-John 15:9-17 - The Reverend Kirk A Kubicek, St. Peter's at Ellicott Mills
O God, you prepare for those who love you such good things as surpass our understanding: Pour into our hearts such love towards you, that we, loving you in all things and above all things, may obtain your promises, which exceed all that we can desire. (Collect for Easter 6)
This is not only our prayer for the Sixth Sunday of Easter. Looked at, listened to,  more closely, it is our Lord’s prayer for us. Our Gospel (John 15: 9-17) takes us back to Maundy Thursday. From the perspective of the Fourth Gospel, this is where it all begins for those of us who would be the church – be the church. Unfortunately the word “church” comes freighted with much baggage – such that we need to cleanse or prune it of all meaning we ordinarily attach to it. Jesus, though  not using the word “church” means that community of persons who abide in him as he abides in the Father – as branches and fruit abide on a vine.

From the thirteenth chapter of John through the seventeenth chapter Jesus says and does things meant to comfort a community in crisis – a community facing enormous loss, a community that will see its “friend,” its savior, die upon a cross. They will witness the pouring out of His blood as a sign of his love for a sinful and broken world. These five chapters constitute the Last Supper for John the Evangelist, and despite no mention of bread or wine, these chapters constitute an invitation to communion with Christ and with one another that transcends all prior association of tribe, family, neighborhood, nation, and even what we usually mean by the word “church.”

The cleansing of the foot washing, the cleansing of Holy Baptism, and the pruning of the vine, allowing God to remove from our midst that which does not and cannot bear fruit, inevitably results in loss which in turn results in pain.  What is meant here is not the loss of loved ones and friends in Jesus, but allowing God in Christ to remove all that separates us from the Love of God in Christ, that which our Book of Common Prayer calls “sinful desires.” (BCP p 302)

To that end what is imagined in our collect prayer, and what is imagined in chapters 13-17 in John, is for us to recognize that if we are to be a church at all, which I believe most of us if not all of us see as coming dangerously close to be slipping away from those of us who call ourselves St. Peter’s, if we are to be a church at all we need to allow God in Christ to remove, prune, cleanse all illusions that we are in control, that we make the church what it is, that we know what love is and how it should be manifested.

We are in the midst of the very hard work of mourning a tragic disruption of our life as a community of Jesus’ friends, and the even more tragic loss of two of our Lord’s closest friends. And yet, if we will really listen to our Lord’s so-called Farewell Discourse, we must come to the realization that our first duty, the first commandment is to abide in Jesus. We must accept the fact that we are not here by choice, but by his choosing us to be His people. It is He who goes to every length to pour His love into our hearts so that we might abide in him – dwell in Him. We accept this Love he pours into us so that we might dwell in Him and He in us.

To do this means that we must allow Him to cleanse and prune away all that gets in the way – that is all of our desires since what He is promising exceeds all that we can desire or imagine. Begging the question: what are we willing to give up to once and for all Be His Church? Just when will we let go of all our notions of “shurch” and abide in Him? Because until we let go of it all and abide in Him and in Him only, we do not have the capacity to obey his second command which of course is to Love one another – to love one another as He loves the Father and the Father loves Him. That is, Abiding in his Love precedes the very possibility of loving one another as He loves us. This “loving one another” is no mere Kumbaya hugging of one another, and not simply putting up with one another. This “loving one another” is very demanding work, surpassing even the hard work of processing and accepting all that has just happened to us this past week.

As I struggle to put this into words, I find myself coming closer to understanding why such passages in the Fourth Gospel are so difficult to read and to understand – so seemingly convoluted. And yet, what is being given to us this day in the Word of God holds as much promise as it holds challenges. In fact, it holds much more promise than the challenges this Word places on our hearts this morning.  Note that Jesus says these things so that His joy may be in us and that our Joy may be full. Note carefully that this is meant to be for us as his community, not so much us as individuals. In fact it is true that any notion of any one person being an “individual” did not really exist in the first century. All persons were understood to be part of a tribe, family, clan or association -what began as a community of his followers and became the church.

Jesus transcends all such affiliations, which we may as well admit exist as factions within his One Holy Catholic and Apostolic Church. He is saying, unless allow Him to prune away all such factions among us, we cannot possibly be One as he and the Father are One. It is painful to give up such affiliations since we believe we derive some sense of pleasure and identity from them. Not to do so, however, is much more painful. Jesus promises more than any affiliation can give, more than we desire – and face it, we desire an awful lot.

As I have been led to say all week, remembering Mary-Maraguerite and Brenda means allowing them to dispel a little of our darkness and draw us closer to the Light – the Light of Christ – of Christ who says later in this farewell discourse, “you will be sorrowful, but your sorrow will turn to joy….So you have sorrow now, but I will see you again and your hearts will rejoice, and no one will take your joy from you.” (John 16:20&22)

He is here. We are here to see him in the bread and in the wine, in his Body and his Blood. He invites us, chooses us, to abide in Him. Before we can “do” anything, we must Be – we must Be in Him, abide in Him so that he may abide in us. We must dwell in Him so that He may dwell amongst us. All joy, all peace, and all that we can do or say must flow out of such an indwelling of Jesus in our midst here and now. The former things must pass away for the new to come into being. We are no longer servants but friends so that we may abide in Him and Love one another. His love is being poured into our hearts here and now so that we might obtain his promises which exceed all that we can desire. The time is now to love Christ in all things and above all things so that He, by the power of His Holy Spirit, might help us and heal us and turn our sorrow into Joy. We cannot do it ourselves. We can, however, allow him to fill our hearts with His love.
We can abide in Him.  Alleluia, Christ is Risen! The Lord is Risen indeed, Alleluia!

Saturday, May 5, 2012

We Come From Love....


6 May 2012 - Easter 5B - 1 John 4:7-21/John 15:1-8
The Reverend Kirk Alan Kubicek, Saint Peter's at Ellicott Mills, Maryland
Beloved Let Us Love One Another

What a surprise: our Sunday bulletin has the wrong gospel lesson. We left the bulletin, however, unaltered with last Sunday's gospel. In fact there is only one gospel, and that is Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. We left it that way, well, because it has become a kind of tradition at St. Peter's to have a bulletin blooper. And because from one "I am" passage to another in John's gospel the most important two words are "I am." So whether our Lord self identifies with being a good shepherd, a vine, or bread, the words "I am" make it clear that it is the voice of the ineffable, almighty and glorious source of all that is, seen and unseen, that is speaking. And we left the bulletin the way it is because it is the last piece of collaborative work by two women who have been violently and senselessly taken away from us.

I say this not to point to any error or mistake on their part. Quite the contrary, it is an outward and visible sign that their undivided attention was where it should be: on the voice that says "I am" and where that voice leads us, and what that voice calls us to do. Brenda and Mary Marguerite listen to that voice - a voice which in last Sunday's gospel says, " I know my own and my own know me."  A voice that this Sunday says, "Abide in me as I abide in you." A voice that says as you serve the least of these, my sisters and brothers, you did it to me.

The Lord our God, the King of the Universe, creator of all that is seen and unseen, says abide in me as I abide in you - "that he may dwell in us, and we in him." Rite One captures the true sense of it. Jesus promises to abide in our midst, in us, and we in him. Both Mary Marguerite and Brenda knew this and lived out of this kind of divine knowledge. To abide with God in Christ is to remain with him through thick and through thin - to hold on to the vine in good times and bad. No times have ever seemed so bad as these past few days. A badness that in truth lasted only seconds, and yet seems to have eternal everlasting consequences for us all.

Brenda and Mary Marguerite were doing the Lord's work. They were serving the Lord directly. "When I was hungry, you fed me..." Like nearly every day of the week, Brenda was leading a profoundly hungry person to the Food Pantry. In the matter of just a few moments it was all over. We will never understand it. We will never understand it no matter how many reports come out of the Howard County Police Department, who have served us all faithfully and well, we will never understand it.

But we do understand this. We come from love, we return to love, and love is all around. Brenda and Mary Marguerite have returned home. They have returned to the heart of Love, the eternal center of God's very Being. Their time with us magnified the sense of God's Love being all around us every moment we spent in their presence. Individually and together they represented the fruitfulness of God's vine - they are precious fruit of God's love. And now they have returned home to the heart of God's love.

"Beloved, let us love one another, because love is from God; everyone who loves is born of God and knows God", writes the First Letter of John. I know, standing beside the two of these faithful women who have been taken from us too too soon, day after day, year after year, that if there is one last desire in both of their hearts it is this: that we love one another as God has loved us. They know this because they listen to his voice. And his voice says, "The commandment we have from him is this: those who love God must love their brothers and sisters also."1John 4:21

It is their commitment to serving their brothers and sisters whoever they might be, and believe me if you spend any time in our office you eventually see every kind of brother and sister there is, that sent them home to the heart of Love. We will never know why, but we do know they and the man they were serving are with the God who says, You are my Beloved - with you I am well pleased.

So that the bulletin you hold in your hand is a sign of their devotion to God's love. What is more important: proofreading and getting the correct lesson in the bulletin? Or, following the commandment to love our sisters and brothers?

A wise practitioner of the healing arts here in Howard County once wrote, "All sickness is  home-sickness." All sickness is home-sickness. Think about it. It is true. We all want to return home to that place from whence we come - the heart of God's eternal love. That being said, then, all of life is a homecoming - a coming home to God.

Brenda and Mary Marguerite have made that homecoming journey. They now reside with all the saints and martyrs that have gone before, charting the way - the Way of Christ. Because Christ is risen from the dead, death no longer has dominion over us. Because Christ is risen from the dead, life is changed not ended. We are those people who believe that when our mortal body lies in death, there is prepared for us a dwelling place eternal in the heavens.

We come from love, we return to love, and love is all around. If we want to know what “love is all around looks like,” just look around. As I look back over the events of the past few days, I see a people who came together Thursday and Friday nights to affirm our faith in the Risen Christ.  I see a diocese that stops its business and takes the time to pray and reflect on our mutual trauma and loss. I see an avalanche of messages from all around the world offering prayers and support on our St. Peter’s Facebook page. I see a community of people called St. Peter’s who know what it means to surround one another with love. And I still see two women who were and continue to be exemplars to us of what it means to abide with Christ - what it means to be known by Christ.

In truth, right now they are where they have always been - in the heart of God's everlasting love.

We come from love, we return to love, and love is all around
And love is all around.
All of life is a homecoming, homecoming, homecoming
All of life is a homecoming,
A coming home to God.
Amen.

Saturday, April 28, 2012

Why Listen To Him?


Easter 4 B - Acts 4:5-12/Psalm 23/1John 3:16-24/John 10:11-18
The Reverend Kirk Alan Kubicek, Saint Peter's at Ellicott Mills
Why Listen to Him?
As is often the case, what is not included in our lessons may be of utmost importance in our hearing what is going on in these lessons. For instance, in Acts, a lame man has been healed, and Peter and John have been hauled before some sort of ecclesiastical court to explain why the lame man is not still lame. And our gospel narrative begins way back in chapter 8 where Jesus is accused of being possessed by a demon, and in chapter 9 when he heals the blind man by the Pool of Siloam.

Then comes one of the great “I AM” passages, “I am the good shepherd…” of which we have a portion this morning, and which ends, “There was again a great division among them because of these words. Many of them said, ‘He has a demon and is mad; why listen to him?’ Others said, ‘These are not the saying of one who has a demon. Can a demon open the eyes of the blind?’”(John 10:19-21) In this we hear what is perhaps the central question of faith, “Why listen to him?” Why listen to Jesus? Why do we listen to Jesus at all?

After all, there are so many other voices competing for our attention. Take, for instance, cable news networks, "reality shows", singing competitions,  dance competitions, Law and Order on three channels simultaneously, not to mention the commercial advertising that makes all this "Televison" possible in the first place! Then there are the politicians of all stripes: the President and his surrogates issuing "important announcements" and "speeches" almost daily; not to mention those on the Primary Circuit; Mayors and Governors all demanding we listen to them; their opponents on city councils and state legislators crying, "Don't listen to  him/her, listen to me!"; corporate interests like "Big Coal" and "Big Oil" insisting that the environment is just fine and would actually be improved if we could find a way to use more fossil fuels; investments schemes, weight reductions schemes, "this can only be purchased on TV" schemes, all the way down to the "Pocket Fisherman" scheme designed to take more money out of our already empty pockets. There are family members unhappy with the family, neighbors  unhappy with the neighborhood, immigrants seeking just some shred of dignity, talk show hosts who know it all, and of course every lay person, deacon, priest and bishop trying to convince us that they know what is best for the church!

Like those at the end of the story, and those in the Acts of the Apostles, who are offended by what Jesus says and does, there are all these competing interests and voices trying to get us to turn away from Jesus and turn our lives over to them instead.

Lord, You have spread a table before me in the presence of those who trouble me! Lord, I know you want me to listen to you! Lord, if you are listening for just one minute, just for one second of one minute, can you please shut out all the competing voices, interests, merchants, politicians and commentators for just a few minutes of silence? Lord, can you please still the waters, can you please make me lie down in green pastures, can your rod and your staff please, Lord, comfort me, touch me, protect me and heal me? Lord, please give me the time, the place and the space to listen to you!

When we look and listen to the shrill voices that surround us on all sides every day we begin to know the plight of the one who gave us the 23rd Psalm. And if we are paying attention at all, we will stop and listen for the Good Shepherd. We will stop and listen for Jesus. And what we will hear if we are listening closely is just two words: “I am…” For people of faith, for
people of the God of Abraham, Isaac, Jacob and Jesus, those are the only two words we need to hear: “I am….”

Jesus says, “I am…” The people of God have heard these words before. Standing barefoot, in front of a bush that burns and is not consumed, we hear a voice and we ask, like the caterpillar in Alice in Wonderland, “Who are you?” The answer comes back, “I am who I am….I am what I will be….just tell them I AM sent you….” (Exodus 3:3:13-14) The one who says “I am” also says, “I know my own, and my own know me, just as the Father knows me and I know the Father. And I lay down my life for my sheep.” (John 10:14-15)

Let's hear what is being said: We are known. We all want nothing more than to be known. We spend a lifetime looking for relationships, reflecting on experiences, searching for someone who knows us, or even more fundamentally, to know ourselves. There is no doubt about it the most fundamental human condition: a desire to know and to be known. All these other voices competing for our attention do not really want to know us. Can’t possibly know us. But there is one who does. The one who says, “I am” wants to know us. In fact the one who says, “I am,” already knows us just as the Father knows him.

God knows us. And in that knowledge, we know God. If we really let ourselves hear what Jesus is saying, we can come to know God. Not a lot of propositions about God, not things about God, but we can experience the reality that is God. This naturally frightens us. But such fear is not mere sentiment. Rather it manifests itself in a way of life, as the First Letter of John speaks about it – a way of life that shows we respect the majesty and power of the God who says, “I am.”

A life that ought to “lay down its life for another. How does God’s love abide in anyone who has the world’s goods and sees a brother or sister in need and yet refuse help? Little children, let us love, not in word or speech, but in truth and action.” (1John 3:16ff). Not even just in what we do, but in who we are.

For all those who listen to Jesus, the shepherd who becomes the Paschal lamb slain on the feast of the Passover to save us from our sins, are the sheep of his pasture. We are poor sheep like those he tends and leads beside still waters. We become his people, his body and blood for the world. "His broken body is [our] broken body upon which others feed. His blood spilled is [our] blood shed to rejoice the hearts of all." (Aidan Kavanagh, Christ, Dying and Living Still) We are sheep turned to shepherds through the mystery of the breaking of the bread.

The one hope is that as folk come to know us that they find in fact another – not the sheep turned to shepherds, but in truth The Shepherd, The Good Shepherd. It will be so if we abide in Him and He in us. It will be so if we let him set our hearts on fire with the breath of his Holy Spirit. It will be so as he opens our hearts to the Word of God. The lame will walk, the blind will see, if when he calls us by name we will only listen.

There are many competing voices. Why listen to Jesus? Because only one voice calls us each by name. Only one voice knows us by name. Only one voice says, “I am….” That Voice is Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Jesus Is Hungry

Easter 3 B - Luke24:36b-48
The Reverend Kirk Alan Kubicek, Saint Timothy's School for Girls, Stevenson, MD
Jesus Is Hungry
Alleluia, Christ is Risen! The Lord is risen indeed! Alleluia!
So there is Jesus standing among his closest friends, the disciples. He says, "Shalom!" Loosely translated that comes across as, "Peace be with you." This is unfortunately an inadequate attempt to put "Shalom" into English. Shalom means so much more than "peace." Or, "peace" means much more than what we think it means. Since "shalom" means to convey that all is well with the world, all is just, all is fair, all is the way God means it to be, it ultimately means something more like, "What are you doing to make the world look more like God's world than Caesar's World?" With Caesar as a stand in for whatever the principalities and powers look like in a given era - Empires, Rulers, Governments, Multi-National Corporations and the like.

Appropriately the disciples are startled - the dead one is on the loose - and terrified - because Holy Moley, here he is! And he still has Shalom on his mind. Always has, always will, always does!

Jesus then says to the disciples, Why are you frightened?

Well, could it be that the last time we saw you you were dead, hanging on a Roman cross, soldiers all around, angry people all around, and well, as far as we knew, dead is dead?

Well, he seems to say, that is true enough. Here, look at the wounds - see my hands, see my feet. See me, feel me, touch me, heal me!

So let's get this straight, upon examining his hands and feet, hands and feet that have had nails, spikes really, driven through them are now eliciting some joy mixed with disbelief. They still think it may be a ghost. But nevertheless, joy.

Then the real Jesus steps forward. "Have you anything to eat?" Didn't he always say you have to come to God's Kingdom like a child? And how many times a day do children look at their parents and say, "What's to eat?"

Apparently, as it is in real life, so it is in the resurrection of the dead: we need something to eat, something to sustain us, something to nourish us. So does Jesus. He wants us to feed him.

So how are we to respond to his simple yet direct request? The disciples offer some broiled fish. Thus providing further evidence that in the early church, as it was with the feeding of the 4,000 and the 5,000, there likely were bread and fish Eucharists. There are even illustrations of such on the walls of early catacombs. There are still places in Europe, I have been told, where the "Eucharist" is still a foot-washing ritual devoid of bread and wine as the fourth evangelist, John, depicts it. That is, things are not always as they seem.

Jesus is hungry. He wants something to eat. They give him fish. He eats the fish. But perhaps we need to pay attention to what happens next. He "opened their minds to understand the scriptures."

Suggesting to me that perhaps his hunger is not for fish, not for bread, not for wine. Jesus is still hungry post-resurrection. He was hungry before the resurrection as well. We would do well to consider the source of his hunger before we are so quick to offer him something to satisfy his hunger. An in-depth understanding of Torah and the Prophets is to be the starting place.

Jesus was vexed with his contemporary religionists. He felt that the application of Torah, application of the Law and the Prophets, had gone off in direction not of God's liking. Instead of bringing God's people, all people, together, the administration, the understanding, of God's 638 rules, beginning with the First Ten, was being used to separate people more than bring them together.

This vexation made Jesus hungry -hungry for freedom, shalom and justice for all people - not some people, not most people, not lots of people. All people.

Had he not made it clear that the  hungry were to be fed? The naked clothed? The prisoner visited? The sick made well? The stranger, the resident alien as the Bible calls them, welcomed? The thirsty given something to assuage their thirst? Had he not self-identified with all these people, including lepers, women, orphans, children, servants, gentiles and Jews?

In a church that is increasingly consumed with power struggles within and without, a church looking for the next great Public Relations scheme to attract people, a church consumed with creating dividing lines between correct and incorrect "belief," a church consumed with parking within the lines, a church consumed with chastising nuns who are devoting "too much time" to issues of social justice, a church that in 1215 under Pope Innocent III decreed that all Jews should wear a yellow patch of cloth sewn to their coats,  a church consumed with just about anything but Shalom, is it too difficult to see that Jesus, who promises to be present in the bread and the wine, Jesus who promises that he is the stranger, he is the prisoner, he is the leper, he is the beggar on the street, he is the prostitute, sinner, the woman who is bleeding to death, the mother or father begging for their child's life, and a tax collector; a Jesus who endlessly teaches about our relationship to the land, the earth, in countless agricultural stories, parables and analogies; a Jesus who challenges every sovereign temporal and religious Power - is it too difficult to see that having been raised from being three days dead and gone and now returned and back with us for all eternity, that this Jesus whom we are to proclaim in all that we do and all that we say wants something more than a piece of broiled fish when he asks, "Have you anything to eat?"

"Repentance, " says Jesus, "and forgiveness of sins is to be proclaimed...to all nations, beginning from Jerusalem. You are witnesses of these things."

Are we? Are we really witnesses of all this?" Jesus, says Luke, is hungry. The Risen Lord, blessed be his Name, is hungry? What in the world are we prepared to offer him? What in the world are we willing to give to him? How shall our witness satisfy his hunger?

Is it possible that his "Shalom" is not a greeting at all?" Is this what he wants from us? Is he asking for Shalom? Are we prepared to give  him this Shalom he speaks of and died for? Or, are we still satisfied to just offer him a piece of broiled fish? Jesus is hungry. He wants us to be hungry too. How do we respond to Him in his need? Amen.

Sunday, April 15, 2012

A Liturgy of the Word for Yom HaShoah

Yom HaShoah
Holocaust Remembrance Day
Saint Peter’s Episcopal Church
April 15, 2012
Yom HaShoah Guest Speakers at Saint Peter’s Ellicott City

1996 Henry Finklestein, Survivor
1997 The Rev. Robert Patterson, Commission on Christian-Jewish Relations
1998 Rachel Bodner, Survivor
1999 Edith Cord, Survivor
2000 Fred Katz, Survivor
2001 Bluma Shapiro, Survivor
2002 Steven Saltzberg, Son of Survivor Lewis Saltzberg
2003 George Rabinek, Survivor
2004 Leo Bretholtz, Survivor
2005 Sol Goldstein, Liberator
2006 Trudy Turkel, One Thousand Children survivor
2007 Rubin Sztajer, Survivor
2008 Edith Cord, Survivor
2009 Morris Rosen, Survivor
2010 Golda Kalib, Survivor
2011 Rachel Bodner, Survivor
2012 Dr. Werner Cohen, Survivor

Prelude

Enter in Silence


Narrator: (standing at the reading table)
We are a group of Christians who are moved to make a public witness, in sorrow and soul-searching, in memory of the six million Jewish people whose lives were extinguished during the Holocaust. While this act was carried out by a neo-pagan regime, we believe it was not unrelated to historic Christian attitudes toward Judaism and the Jews. We believe these attitudes have not reflected, but rather have distorted, the spirit and intent of Christ.
We seek to understand better and help in some part to heal the tragic rupture, nearly two millennia ago, between the parent experience of Judaism and the separated career of its giant child, Christianity. We believe that as Christians, we should remember that, not long after its beginning, the Christian church assumed that it was the successor to and displacer of the Jewish faith, and hence could see little reason for the continued existence of Jews except as candidates for conversion to Christianity; that, in alliance with military states, it often sought to coerce such conversions; that, in the same alliance, it segregated Jews, limited their civil rights, and from time to time condoned their persecution; in short, made them a pariah people in Western civilization. Were they not thus ready-made as scapegoats in the design of a desperate dictator?
In allowing and often sanctioning an idolatrous nationalism in their respective countries and many blood wars, Christians had a part in bringing about Naziism itself. While there was still opportunity, this same selfish nationalism, in many countries including our own United States, refused to open its door to the possible rescue of Jews from their fate under their Nazi oppressors until it was too late for six million.
In addition to the six million Jewish men, women and children who were murdered, at least five million non-Jews were victims of the Nazi regime. These victims included Poles, Slavs, Serbs, Czechs, Gypsies, Greeks, Italians, Russians, Spaniards, Jehovah’s Witnesses, homosexuals, and physically and mentally handicapped people.
Happily, especially since the conciliar statement of Vatican II, Christian views of Judaism are being revised. A new dialogue is opening up between Christians and Jews that today also includes that other people of the book, Islam. Today we ask ourselves as Christians to ponder this whole matter in the spirit of Christ. We seek forgiveness for the transgressions which led, with other evils, to the Holocaust. We strive for justice, reconciliation and peace among all peoples.

Let us Pray:
O God, at this hour of memorial, we recall with loving reverence all of your children who perished through the cruelty of the Holocaust. We pray, Merciful God, that your law, to which your children have borne witness in life and death, shed now a renewed light in our hearts, and that all these martyrs, nameless to us but known to you, shall not have suffered in vain. May their memory be an enduring blessing to all your children. They lie in nameless graves. Their resting places in far-off forests and lonely fields are lost to the eyes of revering kin. Yet, they shall not be forgotten. We take them into our hearts and give them a place beside the cherished memories of our beloved. They are now ours. Amen.


1st reader (standing in place)
“Never shall I forget that night, the first night in the camp, which has turned my life into one long night, seven times cursed and seven times sealed. Never shall I forget that smoke. Never shall I forget the little faces of the children, whose bodies I saw turned into wreaths of smoke beneath a silent blue sky. Never shall I forget those flames which consumed my faith forever.
Never shall I forget the nocturnal silence which deprived me, for all eternity, of the desire to live. Never shall I forget those moments which murdered my God and my soul and turned my dreams to dust. Never shall I forget these things, even if I am condemned to life as long as God himself. Never. - Elie Wiesel, Night
Narrator:
Over one and one-half million Jewish children under the age of twelve lost their lives in the Holocaust. Each one represents a poem not written, a problem not solved, a symphony never composed, laughter never heard, a painting never painted, a book never written, a dream never dreamed, a hope never hoped. . The following poem, “The Butterfly,” was written by Pavel Friedmann, age eleven, while interned in the Terezin Camp.

2nd Reader: (standing in place)
The last, the very last
So richly, brightly, dazzling yellow.
Perhaps if the sun’s tears would sing
Against a white stone …

Such, such a yellow
Is carried lightly ‘way up high
It went away I’m sure because it wished to kiss the world goodbye.

For seven weeks I’ve lived in here
Penned up inside this ghetto
But I have found my people here,
The dandelions call to me
And the white chestnut candles in the court,
Only I never saw another butterfly.
That butterfly was the last one.
Butterflies don’t live in here,
In the ghetto.

3rd Reader (standing in place)
Written in Pencil in a Sealed Railway Car
here in this carload
i am eve
with abel my son
if you see my other son
cain son of man
tell him i

Narrator: Bernard Lichtenberg was a priest at the Saint Hedwig Cathedral Church in Berlin. In August 1941, he declared in a sermon that he would include Jews in his daily prayers because “synagogues have been set afire and Jewish businesses have been destroyed.” One evening Monsignor Lichtenberg did not appear at his church. A brief announcement in the newspapers informed his followers that he had been arrested for “subversive activities.” He was sent to prison, and after serving his term, sent to a concentration camp for “reeducation.” A poor student, so far as the Nazis were concerned, the ailing old priest asked to be deported to the Jewish ghetto in Lodz. His plea was ignored. He died November 3, 1943, on the way to Dachau.



4th Reader: (standing in place)
The Reverend Martin Niemoeller, a pastor in the German Confessing Church, spent seven years in a concentration camp. He wrote the following words:
First they came for the communists,
And I did not speak out because I was not a communist.
Then they came for the socialists,
And I did not speak out because I was not a socialist.
Then they came for the trade unionists,
And I did not speak out because I was not a trade unionist.
Then they came for the Jews,
And I did not speak out because I was not a Jew.
Then they came for me –
And there was no one left
To speak out for me.

Psalm 130 (read in unison)
1 Out of the depths have I called to you, O LORD;
LORD, hear my voice; *
let your ears consider well the voice of my supplication.
2 If you, LORD, were to note what is done amiss, *
O Lord, who could stand?
3 For there is forgiveness with you; *
therefore you shall be feared.
4 I wait for the LORD; my soul waits for him; *
in his word is my hope.
5 My soul waits for the LORD,
more than watchmen for the morning, *
more than watchmen for the morning.
6 O Israel, wait for the LORD, *
for with the LORD there is mercy;
7 With him there is plenteous redemption, *
and he shall redeem Israel from all their sins.




The Holy Gospel: 20:19-31
Then, all standing, the Deacon or a Priest reads the Gospel, first saying
The Holy Gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ according to John.
People Glory to you, Lord Christ.
When it was evening on that day, the first day of the week, and the doors of the house where the disciples had met were locked for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you.” After he said this, he showed them his hands and his side. Then the disciples rejoiced when they saw the Lord. Jesus said to them again, “Peace be with you. As the Father has sent me, so I send you.” When he had said this, he breathed on them and said to them, “Receive the Holy Spirit. If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven them; if you retain the sins of any, they are retained.”

TheThe Gospel of the Lord.
People Praise to you, Lord Christ.

THE SERMON

A Litany of Remembrance
v. O God, Creator, Redeemer and Teacher; Source of Life and Truth and Love and Power; In whom we live and move and have our being,
r. Blessed be your Holy Name.

v. Holy God, Holy and Mighty, Holy Immortal One, whose designs are beyond understanding, whose glory is without blemish, whose compassion for the sin of humanity is inexhaustible,
r. Have Mercy On Us.

v. We affirm that Judaism is a continuing bulwark of faith, that it has not been
superseded by Christianity, that God has not rejected the Jewish people, that the Jewish people have never lost their covenant with God, that salvation is available to the Jews as a covenant people, that the Jews as an historic nation are not responsible for, and therefore not to be blamed for, the death of Jesus, and that Jews should not be pressured to convert to Christianity.
r. May We Remember, Lord, and Never Forget.

v. We state that anti-Judaism in all forms should be universally condemned. We ask forgiveness for past sins and persecutions against the Jewish people. We pray that old barriers to communication and understanding will be removed and that the relationships of the church with the local and worldwide Jewish community will be enhanced.
r. May We Remember, Lord, and Never Forget.

v. O God, our help in ages past, our hope for years to come, we pray that the broken fragments of our world may be restored to wholeness and that the vision of your heavenly city of love, peace and unity may become a reality on earth. And finally we pray for the martyred ones, that their memories may be to us a challenge and an inspiration.
r. Lord, Hear Our Prayer.

v. Exalted, compassionate God, grant perfect peace in your sheltering presence, among the holy and the pure, to the souls of our six million sisters and brothers, men, women and children of the House of Israel who along with five million others were consumed in the Holocaust. May their memory endure, inspiring truth and loyalty in our lives. May their souls and the souls of all the departed rest in peace and be bound up in the bond and covenant of our life with you.
r. May They Rest In Peace.

Narrator: (Returns to reading table)

French author Francois Mauriac offers these reflections upon meeting Eli Wiesel for the first time, just a few years after Wiesel’s liberation from the Auschwitz camps:

“And I, who believe that God is love, what answer could I give my young questioner …What did I say to him? Did I speak of that other Israeli, his brother, who may have resembled him – the Crucified, whose cross has conquered the world? Did I affirm that the stumbling block to his faith was the cornerstone of mine, and that the conformity between the cross and the suffering of men was in my eyes the key to that impenetrable mystery whereon the faith of his childhood had perished? Zion, however has risen up again from the crematories and the charnel houses. The Jewish nation has been resurrected from among its thousands of dead. It is through them that it lives again. We do not know the worth of a single drop of blood, one single tear. All is grace. If the eternal is the Eternal, the last word for each one of us belongs to him. This is what I should have told this Jewish child. But I could only embrace him, weeping.”


5th Reader: (standing in place)
On April 12, 1945, General Dwight David Eisenhower, Supreme Commander of the Allied Forces in Europe, wrote the following words in a letter to George Marshall, his Chief of Staff – describing his first visit to one of the camps liberated by U.S. Forces:

“The things I saw beggared description … The visual evidence and the verbal testimony of starvation, cruelty and bestiality were so overpowering as to leave me a bit sick. In one room, where there were piled up twenty or thirty naked men killed by starvation, George Patton would not even enter. He said he would get sick if he did so. I made the visit deliberately, in order to be in a position to give first-hand evidence of these things if ever, in the future, there develops a tendency to charge these allegations merely to ‘propaganda.’”

Narrator: We light eleven candles in memory of the six million Jewish people killed in the Holocaust and the five million other victims of the Nazi regime. We light candles in memory of all the men, young and old, who perished in the camps – the elderly and infirm who were immediately sent to their death, the young and healthy who were worked to their deaths, to all those who were executed.
We light candles in memory of all the women, young and old, who perished in the camps – mothers who witnessed the deaths of their children, women who risked all to bring new life into the death camps, mothers who had to choose the life of one child over another, or their life over their child’s.
We light candles in memory of the children – of young lives snuffed out before they had a chance to live, dreams never fully dreamt, let alone realized, childhoods cut short.
We light candles in honor and memory of those who survived, who lived through the nightmare and began life anew, those who had the strength to reopen their wounds to share stories with later generations, and those for whom the memory was too painful to bear.
We light candles to honor those who brought the only light to a gloomy world, who brought hope when all was dark. Those who risked their own lives to save a family, a child, one person. Those righteous gentiles, who stood as flickering flames of humanity in the darkest of times. Those who liberated the camps and brought the light of hope and freedom back into the lives of those who survived.
When the candles are lit, the overhead lights will be dimmed for two minutes while we each offer our own prayers in silence.

(Narrator sits down)

Lighting of the Candles
Eleven Candles are lit: six representing the six million Jews who died in the Holocaust, and five for the five million others who were lost: the handicapped, gypsies, homosexuals, mentally ill, “minorities” and those few who dared to speak out against or resist the National Socialist Final Solution.

Silence for two minutes

Closing Litany (All Stand)
Celebrant Now in the presence of loved ones and friends
People Before us the symbols and memories of loved ones

Celebrant For the sake of those who died
People We are linking and bonding the past with the future

Celebrant In coming together to remember the victims of the Holocaust we say that all life is sacred
People In lighting candles for six million Jews and five million others we preserve their memory

Celebrant With every light we kindle this morning we pledge ourselves to remember, not once to forget
People And we commit the victims and martyrs to your eternal care, O Lord

Unison Remembering that whether we take the wings of the morning, or dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there, Your hand will hold us, and your right hand will guide us.


6th Reader: (Standing inPlace)

"It's really a wonder that I haven't dropped all my ideals, because they seem so absurd and impossible to carry out. Yet, I keep them because in spite of everything I still believe people are good at heart. I simply can't build my hopes on a foundation of confusion, misery and death. I see the world gradually being turned into a wilderness. I hear the approaching thunder, I can feel the suffering of millions, and yet, if I look up into the heavens, I think that it will all come right one of these days, that this cruelty will end, and that peace and tranquility will return again. In the meantime, I must hold on to my ideals for perhaps the day will come when I shall be able to carry them out."
- Anne Frank

Celebrant The Peace of the Lord be always with you
People And also with you.

Then the Ministers and People may greet one another in the name of the Lord.


Offertory Hymn 696 By Gracious Powers Le Cenacle